I had lunch on Friday with a good friend of mine. We often have philosophical discussions that often challenge both of us intellectually and emotionally. Today our conversation led us into a discussion about the layers we have, like an onion, as human beings.
Over time, we have developed these layers to protect our inner core. Who’s to say why we’ve developed the layers; we all have our stories of being hurt emotionally, physically, and intellectually. Maybe we have issues with our parents, siblings, or long lost friends. Maybe in our adult lives we have issues with our spouse or our children. All of these issues can lead to insecurity about who we really are, the inner core of our ‘onion’.
There was a time not so long ago that I was too guarded to be involved w/ Twitter or FB. There was a time not so long ago that I felt much anxiety being in a crowd of my peers, especially those that I respected as colleagues, parents, or people. Since, however, I have had a life-changing experience. The transformation didn’t occur until I was in a pit lower than I could imagine. Thank God for the patience of my wife, the insight of a tremendous counselor, and my primary medical doctor who took the time to talk with me for two hours in one visit (it was at the end of the day 🙂 ) God led me to these people and I finally listened!
I have become more of an ‘open-book’ in recent years. I have become much more comfortable with who I am and more confident in what I can offer the world. I trust that God made me in His image to do good things and to love all people. I know there are some skeptics out there that will scoff at my explanation, but that’s okay. Until that person has some experiences to push them to unwrap the layers of their onion, they will not have the opportunity for true freedom.
Some may even wonder why they should peel back the layers. Most seem to have morphed into believing who they are is the outside layer of our protective cocoon. Our inner core, that which God conceived within Himself and from Himself, is our beauty…that which needs to be shared with the universe.
I was raised Catholic and believed in God and Jesus as long as I can remember. I didn’t always get it, I didn’t always apply it to my life. As many young people do, I believed I was invulnerable; I was bigger than life. I finally woke up out of that nightmare! I had to be hit over the head hard a few times so that my heart, mind, and eyes would open to God’s calling. I have been liberated by the Way, the Truth, and the Light. I have been experiencing God’s greatness my entire life but finally palpably recognized it dwelling within me.
There is no doubt that God works in our lives daily…every minute of every day. I have been able to give everything up to God. Hey, I am a sinner and I have made some poor decisions in my life, but God is merciful and forgiving when I have repented and continue to repent. I truly believe that my role here is to do God’s will. I now listen with my heart through prayer. Most importantly, I do my absolute best…although it can be most difficult with all of the distractions of the world…I do my best to listen to God’s calling and follow His lead. John said it, ‘Jesus is the Light of the World.’ There is no question that I know the Light, see the light, and now have the freedom to follow the Light.